Poor Jonathan hates middle school. Told him most of the people on this planet hated middle school and high school is usually a lot better. And the things that make you cool in middle school aren't really that great. Told him that kids in middle school are dorky, mean, awkward, & stupid. Told him that any kids that make fun of his art are probably jealous. And he's a fabulous artist even if they call him names. Told him he's lucky to have two really good friends cause that's more than I had. And he's lucky no one's trying to beat him up every day like they did his dad. Finally told him that he'd have better luck making friends with girls cause they'll like him more. Have avoided telling him that til now cause I know how much they'll like him. But he's almost 13, so it's time, I think. Plus there's only six weeks left til summer & he'll be done with 7th grade forever. Thank heavens! Oh the joys of middle school! :)

Time for phase two. :) Time to go from doing okay to doing great. :)

So happy! Closure! Very good closure! Feel truly peaceful & completely happy & excited for the future again for the first time in months. Feel whole again & it's an amazing feeling. May it last all week! Or even better, forever! ;) So nice to feel emotionally healthy again! Geez, it's amazing to feel like me again! Was starting to wonder how long it would take. Oh may it last! Looking forward to having another really good day tomorrow! My heart feels like it's been freed from the pain & sadness! Feel really, really happy! Thank you Heavenly Father! Thank you, thank you, thank you!!

Another couple of puzzle pieces click into place. Thank you Heavenly Father! :)

Huge thank you to my grandma for the chat. Thank you to my mom & sisters & even Brandt & my mother-in-law for their kindness & support. Feel tons better. :)

So frustrating to be so close to being recovered but not quite be there. Have really good days where I feel strong & happy. And the next day, not so much. It's like seeing the finish line but not quite being able to reach it yet. Need to accept the fact that it's a little further away than I'd like it to be. I think another thing that's making it hard is that the marriage relationship is nearly gone now. The friendship is still there. But the feeling of having someone to rely on is nearly gone. Probably need to talk to more family to get me through the next few days. Guess I'm not strong enough yet not to have support. Cameron's lucky he doesn't need anyone. Makes it easier for him.

6 But the Lord knoweth all things from the beginning; wherefore, he prepareth a way to accomplish all his works among the children of men; for behold, he hath all power unto the fulfilling of all his words. And thus it is. Amen. (Book of Mormon, 1 Nephi, Chapter 9)