So frustrating to be so close to being recovered but not quite be there. Have really good days where I feel strong & happy. And the next day, not so much. It's like seeing the finish line but not quite being able to reach it yet. Need to accept the fact that it's a little further away than I'd like it to be. I think another thing that's making it hard is that the marriage relationship is nearly gone now. The friendship is still there. But the feeling of having someone to rely on is nearly gone. Probably need to talk to more family to get me through the next few days. Guess I'm not strong enough yet not to have support. Cameron's lucky he doesn't need anyone. Makes it easier for him.