Well it's been one heck of a couple of weeks & I've been blogging like a crazy person. :) I've cried today but right now I feel the calmest I've felt since this all started. Feel like I've made the right decision today. Feel like I can genuinely laugh & smile again because I feel peaceful again. I'm sure I'll still struggle some. But the worst should hopefully be over now. :) But I still intend to write what I feel like writing. I have to be able to write whatever I feel here or it won't be any good for me. If anyone's actually managed to read everything I've written, you deserve a gold medal for perseverance!! ;)